In regard to my prosthetic fitting, I knew that I would be in for a frustrating six months to one year, as all of the amputees I have talked with warned me that it would be an adjustment with fits and starts, peppered with a whole lot of adjustment and increasing doses of patience. I'm not quite sure why I've got this tendency to always believe that through my sheer force of will I will be the exception to those expectations. I can work my butt off, find the right resources, or gut through the difficult transitions more quickly and somehow be spared the ugly realities of the amputee experience.
Don't get me wrong, for the most part my leg / ankle is pain-free. I have no problems with phantom pain, which can be bothersome and disabling. I have every reason to believe that eventually I will be back to enjoying the active life I love. However honestly, all sugar-coating aside.....the experience has been tough at times.
It is Amputee Awareness Month, so I figured why not air some of the dirt that we as amputees experience. Here goes:
- Insurance hassles. It's pretty obvious that folks need working limbs, right? Well, unfortunately prosthetic coverage is one of the areas which falls through the cracks in terms of medical coverage. The Amputee Coalition of America has initiated the Prosthetic Parity Bill, which aims to require fair health insurance access for amputees and provide a standard of care for prosthetic coverage. It would be way cool to sign the petition asking senators and government reps to support this legislation. Click HERE to support this effort, and if you do sign it, I'm sending a cyber-hug from the bottom of my heart on behalf amputees everywhere. This issue is huge.) If you're interested in more advocacy, here's another petition: Insurance Fairness Act for Amputees.
- Socket-fitting issues. Probably one of the most challenging issues for a new amputee, if not THE biggest frustration. I've learned that there is both an art and a science to prosthetic design, and it is critical to have a prosthetic provider which embodies the best practice possible in that regard. The "right touch" combined with dedication and passion are critical in the relationship between patient and prosthetist, and folks are known to travel wherever necessary for that combination of attributes.
- Shrinkage. (No Seinfeld references here!) Within the first year all amputees undergo volume changes to their residual limb, which makes the fitting process a challenge (as well as continued documentation to insurance companies for those changes....see above.)
- Skin issues. Like today. I've got itchy red bumps on the back of my knee, likely due to a combination of having shaven earlier in the week and sweating under my liner. They suck. And its best to air out the leg to avoid aggravating the problem for a day or two, lest we complicate the problem. Usually we hope to figure out the source of the problem (like shaving probably, in my case) and hope that this is part of the "leg adjustment" phase.
- Hairy Legs, baby! Yup.... even in best-case scenarios, the little hair follicles scream "help me....I'm suffocating" under the silicone prosthetic liner. So obviously, taking a razor to emerging hairs becomes even more problematic. At some point I may attempt laser hair removal, but for now I get to be part Sasquatsch. Oooo...sexy, hey?
- Sweat happens....and under the prosthetic liner, sweat becomes trapped. Now consider that I am a 45 year old woman who is on the brink of menopause.....you get the idea. After doing eight miles on the stationary bike a few weeks ago, I was able to gross out my entire family by pouring what appeared to be at least a tablespoon of sweat from my liner. There are some solutions to consider (prescription deodorant, botox, and a specialized absorbent prosthetic sock), but for now I'm trying to see if my limb will just get used to it.
- The need to carry a stash of supplies (allen-wrench for the necessary emergency foot adjustments, extra prosthetic socks, prosthetic ointment and alcohol wipes, rag and other sundries) at all times. Ah....and don't forget the crutches for "bad leg days."
- A subtle, creeping guilt complex about all that I'm not able to do, the excess crabbiness which comes from pent up ongoing frustration AND the inability to parent my kids in a more active fashion. We're coming up on 2 1/2 years of "wait and see", so this feeling is not unfamiliar. I just want to feel like a fun, not-so-crabby mom again. I would imagine that these are common feelings among parents who are caught in a similar situation.
I met Rebecca through a mutual friend in the blogosphere over a year
ago, and was totally surprised to meet her at Prosthetic and Orthotic Associates
in Orlando. A very cool chance meeting! Rebecca lives in Philadelphia
and blogs at:: A Thousand Miles . Check it out...she's got an amazing story!
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All of the folks at Prosthetic and Orthotic Associates have a passion for their work, as well as helping amputees regain an active lifestyle. Folks from all over the world come to POA because of their custom fabrication and incredible team approach to solving prosthetic challenges, which many of us face. The family-like atmosphere and team approach works really well, because "many eyes" looking at a prosthetic fitting issue are better than only one set. What is also very cool is that a lot of folks working at POA are amputees themselves, which have an intimate understanding of the experience. .
I first learned about POA from Ronnie Dickson (pictured here working on my leg.)
Ronnie is an amazing climber, prosthetist, and above-knee amputee who shares
a passion for adaptive climbing. He's also an awesome, caring guy with a very cool dog.
You can learn more about Ronnie here: http://xt-9.com/ronnie_dickson.html. Ronnie is
also heading up the National Paraclimbing Competition coming up in July in Atlanta, GA,
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We are hoping to move ahead to create my definitive socket within the next couple of days. I have been wearing a series of check-sockets (see-through plastic sockets which are modified through the fitting process to ensure the best fit), and am looking forward to receiving my lighter, carbon-fiber permanent socket once the proper fit has been achieved. I anticipate continued changes throughout the months ahead as my limb matures, but we are definitely off to a great start.
Shrinkage, skin issues, sweat, and sockets... Of all the "S's" I've learned as an amputee, SUPPORT is my favorite one! We're all in this together for the funny (and not so funny) moments! What luck and coincidence that we stepped out of the cyber-world and became real-life friends this week! I loved meeting you and your family. And hanging with you and Ali was the highlight of my time here! (Nothing like a little Girl Power to shake up the scene at Jimmy John's!) For an amputee, the road may not always be smooth, but as long as we stick together, there'll be happy trails ahead!
ReplyDeleteRebecca....I agree! Support IS my favorite "S" too. It has been great getting to know you this week and bonding over our limbs. :-) Definitely need to hook up at events in the future....hopefully starting at the climbing event in July. Sending your "little leg" good fitting energy over the next few days, and tell her to grow up! It was great meeting your mom...it sounds like your family is a blast!
DeleteChris it is amazing, humbling and inspiring to read your posts. I came extremely close losing my right leg in 1980 at the age of 14 but I was very lucky and last minute treatment saved it. I found I had difficulty in more recent years with the disfigurement of my leg (while my Mother has always said "thank God you have a leg"..which is true and I do!!).
ReplyDeleteYour story and seeing others who cope is helping me so much and allowing me to be 'braver' and not hide my scar. Dresses are the new kids on the block for me now, I was previously a jeans/trousers only woman.
I have NO wish to sound ungrateful for the fact that I didn't have to lose a limb...please do not get me wrong on that. I just have TONS of respect for any amputee as I now understand the challenges so much more from reading your story.
hugs from Dublin, Ireland to you. :)
Thanks so much! Yeah, it is tough to push through sometimes when it is easy to be self-conscious. We need the support of other folks to feel more empowered. It is amazing to see how it gives others permission to be okay with their "imperfections!" Thanks for sharing. :)
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