Wednesday, January 8, 2014

New Chapter...

There's a huge relief in the act of letting go, especially for a tough-ol' pit-bull type of woman like me.  It is an odd mixture of emotions, I'd say.....somewhere between admitting defeat and ease of being okay with the world.   And as I really ponder, I am struck by the fact while that this "okay-ness" has something to do with the knowledge gained with research, confidence in my treatment team, and the resignation which comes from just being plain tired, a greater part of this "okay-ness" comes from the strength and energy I have received from others.

 It has been a gift, really....something I never would have imagined needing, as I'd always prided myself in being a strong, independent type.   It is tough to admit "dis-ability." I think somehow, our
 culture has morphed the concept into a dreaded lot-in-life to be avoided at all cost, as to admit it would equate with throwing-in-the-towel.   

The truth I have found however in coming to embrace this new life I'll be facing, is that the inner drive to overcome, and that drive to keep on, keeping on is amazing.  It is a STRENGTH.  As I have shared my struggle and this journey, I feel honored to have met so many others overcoming obstacles of all types.  There is really something quite sacred about joining together in this space....something which is deeper and more real than anything I have ever experienced in my lifetime until this point. 


It is with a grateful heart that I'm moving forward with this huge life-change.  I am grateful for all those who have also shared how they have risen from the ashes, and have shown me the view from the other side.  
I know there's a long road ahead, but this is the beginning of a new life, and I've found some great fellow-travelers.  I'll be looking for more....there's a lot of life out there to explore!


  1. Love to you, Chris! Tons of good thoughts headed your way now and in the coming weeks. You are an amazing woman.


    1. Thank you so much Lynn. Hugs to you and your family!